| Khust Castle, The Carpathians, Ukraine |
[Dec. 24th, 2009|10:34 am] |
This castle was built in the XI c. as the Hungarian royal castle for the defence of the salt way. And it was destroyed by an explosion in the XVIII c. Now it is called as the Drakula Castle.
Certaintly, it is a legend, but you now, I can download my pictures - only one, the first :-(
For me it was quite strange and frighten place. Imagine, you have to go up during 1,5 hours to the empty woody hill with the cemetory in its half-way. It was unexpectable, because these ruins are like in the centre of a small town. I was alone and in the half-way I was completely afraid and wanted to go back, but it was shame to do it and pity... So I walked up and up to hope to meet people at least in the top. I saw people only twice. And you know in such a place you don't know is it better or not :-). Then, in the top it was even more awful. I was alone, only with stones and "jungles"... I ran there and tried to do photos with my hands trembling... and then I ran down... As a result I reduced near 3 kg :-) or more....
These photos from here: http://realt.org/photo/11
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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|02:45 am] |
I've been bored recently. I'm visiting family in Ohio and I'm dying. So, I've been spending lots of time taking pictures of myself and veggie out.Plus, today I had a shitty day so I was trying to cheer myself up.. My best friend is pissed at me because her best friend and I have been talking. It's a mess. She doesn't want anything happening between us. I've tried to tell her that we are adults and that we can do what we want.. but at this point she's threatening to kick me out..
I am NOT enjoying the cold.
Eli. 21 in march. Pre everything
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| roll call! |
[Dec. 23rd, 2009|04:40 pm] |
Yet another ridiculous photo of me pulling a stupid face but what can you do  Any queers from Brisbane, australia wanna hang out and maybe be friends? |
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| Forgotten Church ... |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|11:52 pm] |
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In general, churches, monasteries and manor houses are particularly never attract me. I’m more interested in chemical plants in ruins or abandoned hospitals... By the way, this places could have their own interest
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|09:54 pm] |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|08:30 pm] |
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| Дом коммуна Наркомфина. Интерьеры. Заброшенный пентхаус. |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|08:09 pm] |
В центре Москвы, в одном из самых престижных районов города, на Новинском бульваре стоит очень интересный дом... Дом-коммуна Наркомфина.
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|11:52 am] |
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Под катом больше размером.
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| Just some thoughts. |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|02:22 am] |
Yo. I'm Rebecca. I introduced myself once ages ago but I never posted here after that, though I occasionally comment. I never thought I had anything to say or bring to the proverbial table. Then I wrote this journal entry and I was like, "Hey." So anyway this is my first non-introductory post.
Tonight, my girlfriend asked me if I had ever considered a sex change. This partially excited me because I feel like in most places where I work or live, it is a taboo subject, and I really just want to be able to talk about it freely and openly, like we'd discuss what we want for lunch or what we think about this book or movie. Any gender stuff at all, whether or not the discussion involves transsexuality, is so interesting to me--yet for some reason a lot of people willingly block transsexuality out of it.
Anyway, so I was just sitting here being awake and on the Internets and pondering this and being like, "Why not use this as an opportunity to ramble about myself in a public sphere? It's fun!"
I have indeed been in periods where I heavily contemplate the state of my femaleness, or lackthereof, or total differentness, and whether that is "male" and whether I am unhappy with anything about my femaleness, or whether I am desiring of physical maleness. I even picked a male name out for myself in the possible event that I concluded a sex- and gender-change is "for me."
Definitely, there is a maleness to my personality and my sexuality. Although I tried to deny and to push it toward the back of my consciousness in early childhood, and only timidly and privately addressed it throughout my adolescence, having it manifest many times more frequently and unwittingly through outlandish, rebellious, and overtly sexual ways (one could argue it was a sort of secondary "male adolescence" I guess), when I began reading about gender in my early 20s (feels weird to say that, haha, since I'm still technically IN my early 20s...), I became excited and, soon, liberated by coming to see the various ways one can experience and express their gender and sex. It is not so set in stone, so ~binary~. It is fluid, amorphous, many things, a spectrum.
It's okay to be female and male at the same time, in varying degrees and intensity. This doesn't have to be a conflict. It can be a marriage. |
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| What's a fella to do. ?!? |
[Dec. 21st, 2009|10:16 pm] |
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Let me do a total re-introduction. Nat 22, gender chopp`d & screwed. Have you ever been caught in a situation that seems like its impossible to tell or even express? I have this amazing girlfriend and its been close too about 2 months with us, and the first month we were together she went home for Thanksgiving break, and that was hard and now she back home with her family again 'till the 4th of January. My bday is on the 30th & our 2 months is on the 23rd and you know Christmas of 'course. Its been weird w/o her by my side ... Enough on that note. I have been having these thoughts about transiting for a long time at that and I brought it up to her and she was very supportive during the conversation but she said to me that she doesn't believe she could ever see me as a MAN. I have my own definition of a man, & that is a "MAN" isn't defined by whats between his legs - all the FTM's I know have the strongest mental state I have ever come in contact with. I feel like my mental sate has overcome the female mind that I have, a brain is powerful, like a sponge . I want to transition one day but the mental state is a journey that I have to go through before any testosterone hits my body.  |
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| The Abandoned of 2009 |
[Dec. 21st, 2009|07:03 pm] |
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So... as I look back upon the past year,
I feel blessed to have been able to see and share as much as I have.
As a farewell to 2009 (and hello to 2010) I made a video up for our YouTube channel.
It features highlights from our outings over the past 9 months.
Some locations in the video are places I have posted about here,
other locations will not be familiar to some of you.
These are places I will be posting to this group in the near future.
Though I did not originally intend to post the video here, I now think that I should.
Perhaps to get people pumped up for the new year, or to reflect on their own past year.
In the end, all we (Christina and I) really wish is for people
to treat these places with a little more respect and dignity.
The members of this group seem like the type that do just that,
so it is you who I intended the video for anyway...
More than just rotting wood lies within these walls.
There's history to be learned, and knowledge to be instilled.
Wishing everyone the best in 2010, and to not fall through too many decaying floors...
~Rusty
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